I ran across a blog. It was a bit terrorfying. Disturbing and sad.

I couldn’t stop scrolling. Because it was exactly who I used to be. Exactly what I have been fighting for the year and a half. I never thought I’d change. Im suprised to find that I did. With the help of an absurd ass hole. Real heart breaker. Who left me doing it all alone. 
Its for the best. I can’t open my eyes lare enough to capture any of this.
He has no clue… I think maybe I have done it alone this whole time anyway…. Thats a lie.

It, as of the blog hauts me daily. Its like a drug, that scars.

and no one ever knew how much I have stuggled.
The one that knew, ran away. Funny.

3 years I started getting help. I think Im the healthiest I have ever been.
One foot in front of the other guys.

Im no saint. Certainly not. Addictions are hard.